I can’t get out of bed. I’ve tried. My limbs no longer work, I can’t stop coughing and I appear to have no balance. There is a constant buzz in my left ear and I can’t see straight. This is a first. I think I’m fighting a losing battle with this world. It’s bigger than me anyway and every time I engage it spits me out faster than before. I can’t be the person I want to be. I can’t even remember who that person is. She was right. No one cares any more. Everyone has run away.